We put up the Christmas tree today despite the fact I am no where near the Christmas spirit. At first N was being a complete jerk, yelling what a bitch I am and refusing to help with anything. I reminded her that if she wanted to feel less like an outsider then participating in family... Continue Reading →
Christmas Blues
I struggle a lot during the Christmas season and even when M1 is not off the wall it has always been hard to get through the holidays. I go through the motions, making cookies, going to mass, handing out presents and cooking the dinner but the whole time there is a persistent sadness that has... Continue Reading →
Memorial Day
I went to leave work and my boss says to me "Have a good Memorial Day." and I cringe inside, no Memorial Day isn't good. When you tell a veteran to have a good Memorial Day it is the equivalent of saying "Have fun at that funeral!!" I know it sounds absurd but it is the... Continue Reading →
Christmas Traditions
Today my boss came up and asked my co worker and I if we had any Christmas traditions we passed on from our families of origin to our current families. My co worker sang stories from a book and lovingly created these for her brand new daughter as she beamed with pride. I felt awkward... Continue Reading →