Where to Next?

I am somewhat at a loss today as so many things have fallen apart in just a few days, like three to be specific. My best friend lost her Dad last week and while it was sad she was not very close to him and more needed help in dealing with her family who tends... Continue Reading →

Not Unexpected News

Yep M1 if pregnant again. She announced it yesterday to us and wanted to do a cutesy photo shoot with the babies. I am not even feeling anything right now. I found out in the morning from a friend and she begged me not to say anything. M1 came over last night and announced it.... Continue Reading →

Into the Year

I am so stuck right now I am not sure what to do. I am struggling hard and feel like I have no where to turn. I know I do and I know folks care for me but wow is this hard right now. Court was last Monday and nothing happened. M1 never got a... Continue Reading →

Happy Birthday M2

I am not by any means an emotional person. However yesterday I was in tears on and off because of the fact my baby turned 16. I was so overwhelmed with pride in her that I could not believe it. We had meetings to discuss job training so she can get a job. She started... Continue Reading →

New Year Old Struggles

I am trying to be positive so let's see how this goes.... Positive, I have wanted a Ninja Foodi so after struggling with the holidays I decided that I would buy myself one. Now they are expensive and so it took me a bit to struggle with coughing up the monies but my coworker swore... Continue Reading →

Incredible Audacity

We have been homebound for a week and managing all right. M1 checks in when she has questions and to complain about her life but doesn't typically ask about the girls or how we are doing. She did ask today if we were getting COVID tested before quarantine ends, well she asked M2. Yesterday I... Continue Reading →

Christmas Tree Traditions

We put up the Christmas tree today despite the fact I am no where near the Christmas spirit. At first N was being a complete jerk, yelling what a bitch I am and refusing to help with anything. I reminded her that if she wanted to feel less like an outsider then participating in family... Continue Reading →

Executive Functioning

I think sometimes the parenting part of my relationship with M1 is the constant struggle and consequent anger on both our parts of her inability to logically plan and anticipate. Yes she does have a challenge in executive functioning and despite many therapy sessions of trying to help her develop a way to approach things... Continue Reading →

Deep Conversations

M2 and I sat on a bench this past weekend when out taking photos of the foliage. We sat for a bit not really talking and then she said: "Mommy can I ask you something that might make you mad?" I told her yes and I would do my best to not be mad or... Continue Reading →

Reset Needed

Good morning all can I go back to bed now sigh.....last night was super rough. N decided she didn't need to listen to a darn thing I said and was escalating out of control. I literally had to stand between her and M2 to prevent them from going at it. Finally N calms herself down... Continue Reading →

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