Gad Awful Vacation

So I might not go on vacation for awhile now that I just had this experience. All of it is true and none of it is pretty. Please be warned some of the information I will discuss in this post are NOT for those who are faint of heart or easily offended. I promise to... Continue Reading →

Work Backfires

Today my kids learned that sometimes life is also not fair to Mom. Unfortunately they learned it as I tried to eliminate curse words through the tears streaming down my face. Nope it wasn't them this time it was actually work. I explained to the kids at the beginning of the pandemic that sometimes you... Continue Reading →

Another Plan Unraveled

Have you ever thought "Please let me be wrong"? Well that is truly how I felt when I found out boytoy was joining the Navy and going to basic training. My head knew he could not make it through but deep down I did want him to succeed. Unfortunately, yesterday the call came and he... Continue Reading →

The Continued Nightmare

Yesterday CPS called me and asked how things were going with M1. I told them I did not know, that I knew she was full of drama and she had been telling people she dropped the baby, she was exhausted and she was going to snap any time now. Well she told this to another... Continue Reading →

Sometimes existing is hard

I think the hardest part of the last few weeks is knowing on an internal level that M1 is not going to get herself together. At this point she has alienated my parents and siblings, they all want to be cruel to her. She has lost both children to friends/family. Its not that it is... Continue Reading →

Who is to blame?

I have had the baby since Thursday and I was exhausted to my core. I did not want to have to care for another baby. I am too old, too tired and frankly too angry. I have snapped at my kids and spent a ton of time crying in frustration. Additionally on Friday, M1 sent... Continue Reading →

A Nightmare Week

I am so grateful and spent after this week that it is hard to put it into words. After reviewing the events as they unfolded I am eternally grateful to the friends who know me outside of my writing world. I leaned on them way more than I have in a bit. On Monday after... Continue Reading →

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