Gender Reveal

Yep today was the ultrasound and it's a girl. I want to be happy but I am not. I feel like the holy high roller just threw me a bone with this one and while I am grateful, I am not. I sent M1 and article yesterday on the cost for the first year raising... Continue Reading →

A Funeral for Birth Grandmother

A post or so ago I told you all that M1 told M2 their birth Grandmother had passed away. Well the funeral was today and what an event that was!!! Now in addition to knowing the Grandmother, for those who don't remember I was the "Big Sister" to their biological Aunt so of course I... Continue Reading →

Practicing Self Care

I had a long talk with my counselor about the mess that my life has become. I am aware that I will likely spend a large portion of my life raising an infant I had no desire to parent. Yes I am angry but it isn't the child's fault. The other larger issue is me... Continue Reading →

The Nightmare Continues

OK now M1 is actually pregnant. No I am not surprised. I got her birth control she refused to take it, not shocked. Talked to boy toy about using a condom, he forgot, how convenient. Oh did I mention she is not technically with boytoy? She has moved on to predator. She is also not... Continue Reading →

Christmas Blues

I struggle a lot during the Christmas season and even when M1 is not off the wall it has always been hard to get through the holidays. I go through the motions, making cookies, going to mass, handing out presents and cooking the dinner but the whole time there is a persistent sadness that has... Continue Reading →

Tonight I am Angry

I decided tonight the problem I have is that I am angry. I can blame the kids for the anger but the truth is that it lies in myself. I am really angry with me and don't need to blame the kids. I am angry at myself for not doing a better job with M1.... Continue Reading →

Doing the Right Thing

I would say hands down the worst part of being an adult is when you have to do something because it is the right thing to do, even when you don't want to do it. Well that was today so let me explain. The Littles live with their maternal grandfather. Their paternal grandfather died unexpectedly... Continue Reading →

Unexpected Court Date

No worries, the Littles are fine as is my brood. Today at work one of my coworkers gets a phone call from an office mate. She had called the police, her fiance has "lost his mind" destroyed property and attacked her. Work was in a panic, why......well we all work together even the fiancee. Quickly... Continue Reading →

Messy Relationships

No not mine, my oldest child's. Recently I saw that yet again M1 went to "in a relationship" status on Facebook. I knew who it was and I was sad, really sad. I felt helpless to stop her and angry she could not see what was going on. Let me tell you how it went... Continue Reading →

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