Why, just why?

Today M1 decided after being away from the house for a week and a half that I should allow her friend to move in with her into my home. When I tried to explain the stupidity behind letting a stranger move in with us, she went from almost pleasant to psychotic in just a few... Continue Reading →

My Place in this Mess

I realize that my role in M1's life is emotional whipping post. Tonight after several extremely rude messages from her and cruel expletives I called her on the phone to talk to her about her clear issue with me at this point. She told me I am the only abusive relationship she has in her... Continue Reading →

The Never Ending Demands

So I am on the crap list again for M1 and I am trying not to make it obvious I just don't care. Last week she demanded a TV in her room and then a notebook computer so she could watch "her shows" When reminded she is home three hours a day by herself which... Continue Reading →

First Contact

M1 messages me and asks if she can come over she has no clothes and wants her birth certificate and SSN card. Umm no those are my copies I will meet you and we can get you the non driver ID you want but no you are not getting my only copy of these documents.... Continue Reading →

Rethinking Medications

Two months ago M1 had an allergic reaction to the antidepressant she was on. She came off it and became a train wreck of emotions. She was fine one minute, cursing screaming the next. No one knew what would set her off and when asked she would tell us that she was perfectly fine. All... Continue Reading →

Facing my reality

I think I may have mentioned before the M1 is diagnosed with Reactive Attachment Disorder. While the struggle is very real and very hard I often lie to myself about how bad it really is living with it day in and out. Let me clarify On Monday I ask her where her homework is. She... Continue Reading →

Wow Did I Mess Up!!!!!

I bow down to pray I try to make the worse seem better Lord, show me the way...- Lady Gaga, Million Reasons You know when you live from moment to moment it is hard to remember that sometimes you  need to plan. Living with kids with trauma is a non stop zoo and unfortunately in the... Continue Reading →

So Mad I Cried

I had to take M1 to the Nurse Practitioner today who prescribes her meds. I have concerns because she is WAY more impulsive, unable to control emotions at school and goes from zero to I am going to rip your f*** head off in 3 seconds flat. All of this misery since the meds were... Continue Reading →

Halloween and Mental Illness

"Welcome to the Insane Asylum" is what the ad said and part of me got really sad. It is Halloween and of course there will be haunted everything but when I see insanity plugged in and used to scare people it makes me sad, really really sad. No it is not because of the kids,... Continue Reading →

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