A Nightmare Week

I am so grateful and spent after this week that it is hard to put it into words. After reviewing the events as they unfolded I am eternally grateful to the friends who know me outside of my writing world. I leaned on them way more than I have in a bit. On Monday after... Continue Reading →

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Momentary Sadness

Today I sort of felt bad for myself and I know that I should not. I drove to my Alma Mater to pick M2 up from her one week course. Good news she loved it so that was great. I drove past the first college on the journey SUNYA and saw it was move in... Continue Reading →

Mud run fun

Today N, M2 and my BFF did a mud run. You can see M2 in the blue and N in the pink in the above photo. I am to the left getting a drink so you can only see a bit of me but yeah I am good sized. Anyway....the mudrun we did today is... Continue Reading →

First Week New Year

OK so this week has been awful with N being belligerent and defiant inside and outside of the house. I was so freaking done then it dawned on me why. So I sat her down and talked to her.  I asked her how she felt about my injury and initially she was defiant and refused... Continue Reading →

New Year New Challenges

So 2017 ended with a fracture of my finger sigh...... N attacked me and it was not pretty, the finger was angled in a way that made me gag, soooo medical attention was required.  I decided to bring N with me to urgent care when I went so she could hear the damage she caused.... Continue Reading →

Dear M1

I am writing to you because lately, you avoid me like the plague. You refuse to talk to me except to ask me to do things for you. You refuse to come home for any length of time and when you do you avoid me as if I am the problem. I hate to break... Continue Reading →

The Never Ending Demands

So I am on the crap list again for M1 and I am trying not to make it obvious I just don't care. Last week she demanded a TV in her room and then a notebook computer so she could watch "her shows" When reminded she is home three hours a day by herself which... Continue Reading →

Facing my reality

I think I may have mentioned before the M1 is diagnosed with Reactive Attachment Disorder. While the struggle is very real and very hard I often lie to myself about how bad it really is living with it day in and out. Let me clarify On Monday I ask her where her homework is. She... Continue Reading →

Happy Un-Mother’s Day

One of my favorite bloggers ABM wrote about the challenges with Mother's Day and I had to agree with most of what she said. Now I have been a Mom for 12 years now, and  just like the tides of the ocean, waves of emotion come through our home. When I first became a foster... Continue Reading →

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