Unfortunate Turn of Events

Today I was told by protective services that I was to return Baby S to her parents. They then told me that the safety plan was revoked and no follow up was recommended. My heart dropped and I felt absolutely sick to my stomach. What do you mean not needed? Are you out of your... Continue Reading →

Dealing with M1 Frustrations

One of the harder things I struggle with when it comes to M1 is the fact she only contacts me when she needs something. I can text her ask how things are going and while she does answer, she makes no attempt to talk to me unless there is a need. Yesterday was pretty typical... Continue Reading →

Another Year

Soo I rang in the new year trying to convince Baby S she needed to get to sleep. She was not really on board with the idea and it was past 12:30 when she finally decided to sleep. Oh well it is what it is and she did sleep until 5am so that was pretty... Continue Reading →

Christmas Day itself

I will start with a funny story, though it is only funny because it was not serious. I have been cooking since I was 10 years old. I have worked in many kitchens and can cook just about anything, as long as it is not ornate or super decorative as I am not really good... Continue Reading →

Christmas

I am writing this at 4am on Christmas morning. Baby S has just been fed and she is "arguing" with me as she falls asleep in her swing. She is so funny she becomes very vocal as she puts herself to sleep. She grunts and grunts which is why it sounds like she is mad... Continue Reading →

Weekend Before Christmas

It has been a tough week. M2 has been a good help with the babies but N requires constant prompting to help with the most minimal of tasks. I get so tired of having to lay everything out but then have to control my anger as part of it is her disability. She does help... Continue Reading →

Actual Facebook Exchanges

M1 posted this: I’ve got a question for my Facebook friends and family, do y’all think I’m mentally unstable? Ughhhh no why would u think that….not at all! I haven’t talked to you since my sophomore year of high school but I know you’ve always done the absolute best given your situations.I've been friends with... Continue Reading →

Gratitude

I know lately I have been complaining and venting a lot so I wanted to be sure to remember during the season of giving how truly blessed I actually am because yes it is hard to remember. Yesterday A sent me a message "I noticed you had a cold. Why don't you let me take... Continue Reading →

Sometimes existing is hard

I think the hardest part of the last few weeks is knowing on an internal level that M1 is not going to get herself together. At this point she has alienated my parents and siblings, they all want to be cruel to her. She has lost both children to friends/family. Its not that it is... Continue Reading →

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