Good morning all can I go back to bed now sigh…..last night was super rough. N decided she didn’t need to listen to a darn thing I said and was escalating out of control. I literally had to stand between her and M2 to prevent them from going at it. Finally N calms herself down and then M2 starts up. I can’t even get into the ugliness that ensued. Suffice it to say I wanted 4 hours before I went to the bathroom to be sure nothing happened.
What happened well I asked N to clean her room and she didn’t want to. I asked her to finish up her laundry as one of our cats had gotten sick on my bedding and I needed to wash it. Well she didn’t want to and then the raging ensues. She then went after M2 so I have to intervene. She hit me 3 times before I looked her dead in the eye and said “Hit me again and I will have you arrested. I am done with being assaulted.” She retreated to the couch refusing to go to her room as I requested. Once she sits on the couch, M2 starts up.
M2 is mostly mouthy but she is vile and mean. She kept saying things to intentionally provoke N and despite my repeated requests for her to turn off the ugliness she just directed it at me instead. She then started to throw pillows at me. I told her to knock it off or the next thing thrown would result in me restraining her and taking her to the floor. She screamed that she would call the police and I calmly told her to go ahead I will be happy to sign her into a hospital for observation as she is clearly a danger to me and Baby K (no she wasn’t really but….)
I told both that at 10:30 they were to to go their rooms and it wasn’t a request it was a demand. They go to their rooms at 10:30 or the phones are shut off for at least a week. Truth is that I needed to get myself under control. I was soooooo angry I wanted to get physical and that is NOT an option. It took me almost 3 hours to calm myself down enough to get to sleep. When I woke up this morning I decided a reset would happen.
Starting this morning there are no extras. You will learn how to behave and treat me with respect. You don’t need donuts, ice cream, meals from McDonalds. You can learn how to act and if you want extras from this point forward you can earn them. I am so fed up, so tired and can’t even begin to figure out how the heck I am going to manage them come September when they only go to school part time and are remote part time.
Oh and yes there is M1 drama going on but right now my head is pounding and my nerves are shot so I am not even going to get into it. I am so overwhelmed right now. I really hope it gets better but pray it doesn’t get worse.