OK so I tell M1 that Eminem is an “angry little white man” but hey she can relate to the lyrics so whatever. Well when Momma is steamed I turn to Pink. All right not as trendy as the white rapper boy but hey I am old. So today after a confrontation with M1 the song “True Love” is going through my head.
“Sometimes I hate every single stupid word you say. Sometimes I want to slap you in your whole face. There’s no one quite like you, you push all my buttons down. I know life would suck without you..”
See M1 was caught today by me trying to steal money out of my lunch box. Mind you this is after I discovered the $5 missing in my change box and confronted her about yesterday. So last week she stole money, today she tried to steal money and did I forget to mention the kid is on probation. Now as part of the deal I cannot lecture her only record it so I did and I will wait for the PO to call.
“At the same time I want to hug you. I want to wrap my hands around your neck. Your an A******le but I love you and it makes me so mad I ask myself why I’m still here. Where should I go? You’re the only love I’ve ever known. But I hate you. I truly hate you, so much I think it must be true love….”
Well ok I don’t really hate my kid. I mean in the moment I did but I don’t. I get why she does it BUT it still sucks. I still am violated and she still doesn’t care. She refuses to ask. Steals if I give it to her, steals if I don’t give it to her. Steals if I try to make her earn it. Heck she steals only because she can and no other reason. , She wants it, I have it, she takes it and has for 10 long years. Now she is on a PINS petition I wonder if that will help.
Adoptive NY Momma 
Praying for you friend.
Thank you. I appreciate that very much.